Saturday, December 30, 2006

#78

I am in Nashville,TN today. My little brother is getting married and that is just crazy. Later.

Friday, December 08, 2006

#77

So, we went to a Christmas party tonight. If was one for the MFT program so I knew only three people there. Well, ok, technically four I think, Me, The Princess, Holly and Becky. I guess I also knew Jim and his wife and maybe one or two others. Ok, so eight tops. At this party they have a tradition for first time visitors. They have to sing, in front of everyone. So, me and The Princess get up and we do our number. We chose to sing a jazz number called Moon Faced and Starry Eyed. I hate doing things in front of other people. Anything where I have to speak in front of a large group, I hate it. The more I know about it before hand the more it eats away at me. It burns in my belly sending the nervousness to the outer reaches of my body. Days of building up tension. When we start the singing portion of the evening my heart starts to race, my hands go clammy, and I start to sweet a little. It is all I can do to keep myself from vomiting up everything I just ate. Argh, I hate this. Even afterwards it is still there, it did not go away. So, I left. I had to get out of there and away from all those people. I am feeling a little better now. Not much, but a little.

I am not the man I once was. I am not the man I want to be.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

#76

Well, work has been going ok. The only problem is that one of my lackies has decided to quit. I need to definitly find a replacement and quick. So, Josh and anybody else, please send me a resume tonight. Tomorrow morning I am going to put something in to the IT department at HU and see if what comes from that. I called over to the Computer Science department, but they said that it sounded like something that was better suited for the IT department. Oh well, that is what you get some times. Yeah, well, not much else is going on here. Just waiting for Christmas and all the travel that entails. Later peeps.

#75

So, here I am chillin at work. I will write more tonight. Promise.